We decided to go to Vaughan Mills Mall tonight so the kids could spend the money Grandma and Grandpa gave them under the Christmas tree. Of course, we had to hit the best Lego store so off we went. Kiefer, who's very choosy when it comes to toys, actually found a super villain toy that he LOVES and can't wait to play with - so that was an added bonus. After the mall, we went to visit Daddy at his work and have dinner at the neighboring mall. We enjoyed food court dinner (everyone gets exactly what they want) and then watched a show at work on the BIG screen.
On the way home the kids chatted happily about what they were going to do with their new sets and how they were excited to call Grandma and Grandpa and tell them how they had spent the money.
Then, out of the blue, Parker asked me, "Mom, if you could ask God one question what would it be?" I immediately knew my question - but it was too personal to share. Then he continued, "Actually, if you could talk to him for 10 minutes and talk about, or ask whatever you wanted, what would you talk about?"
That made me think deeper. I knew exactly what my first question would be.
"Kiefer. All his struggles. WHY?"
The thought almost instantly brought me to tears. He is an amazing boy who loves to love. He is concerned with EVERYONE'S happiness. And his latest request at his last doctors appointment broke my heart.
"Dr. Langburt, please I ask you a question?"
"Sure buddy. What's up?"
"Please you take my seizures away"
COMPOSE YOURSELF MOM!!! I could feel my heart instantly breaking into a million pieces but he's looking at the doctor and ME for an answer. The doctor looked at me helplessly. This extremely educated pediatric neurologist is lost for words by the question of a 9 year old! I quickly jump in.
"Well that's why we're here sweetie. Dr. Langburt is doing everything he knows how to help you get rid of them."
"Maybe you need to ask a friend" Kiefer replies.
Dr. Langburt lets out a little laugh - a pretty big deal for this stoic doctor.
"That's a good idea Kiefer. I'm going to talk to some of my friends about you."
So that's it. That would be my one question if I had the chance.
Why God? Why make this lovely, innocent, caring bundle of love suffer? What purpose does it serve? What lessons are we or Kiefer supposed to learn from it? How does this help us grow??
Parker and Blaine talked about their questions. Parker wanted to know if we were alone in the universe. (That's a good one) Blaine wanted to know if he was going to be rich when he grew up. Parker wanted to know what heaven was like. Blaine wanted to know if reincarnation was really a thing.
Me, I kept quiet while I pondered it all.
What would I talk to God about for 10 minutes.
Parker talked about being scared to go to heaven because it was so long.
"Like we'll be there forever. Like billions of years but we're only here for like a hundred - if we're lucky! What are we going to do in heaven for a billion years?!"
And then I thought of a few.
What's the point? Regardless of what you believe in...heaven, hell, reincarnation whatever.
What is the point of being here? What is the meaning of our ever so short lives in the comparison of the grand scheme of things? Parker is right. 100 years seems so insignificant. So what's the point?
Then I thought back to Kiefer and his enormous heart.
And almost as I was thinking it, Kiefer spoke up.
"God just wants you be kind ... love people. You be kind, you go to heaven and be happy. You be happy here, you be happy there (heaven). That's it. That's all God wants."
It's kind of odd, but I honestly think he nailed it.
From the mouths of babes.
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